Saturday, December 27, 2008

Travel day 4 of 5...

Remind me not to do this again next year. We've been going non-stop (literally) over the past 4 days...and it's not over yet.

Our travels started on Wednesday, Christmas Eve with the drive up to Dallas from Austin as soon as I got off work. Thankfully, we got out a couple of hours early so we were able to make it up here within a reasonable time frame to have dinner with my mom followed by a movie (Seven Pounds). Being the good Catholic boy that he is, K got up early to go to Church on Thursday. We had an early afternoon flight out on Thursday and my mom was going to drop us off at the airport...good thing that I realized two hours before our flight that we were actually flying out of LOVE FIELD instead of DFW. The airports (Love Field, Houston, and Columbus) were relatively quiet with the majority of travelers already at their holiday destination. So, our travel day on Christmas was relatively uneventful and we arrived in Columbus around 8pm. We stayed at a hotel in Capitol Square across the street from the State Building, along the route of the marathon/half-marathon that we ran there last year. With nearly everything closed for Christmas, we had to settle for dinner at the sports bar in the hotel. Merry freaking Christmas.

The real fun occurred on Friday. We had a 2-hour drive from Columbus to the small town where K's parents live. We were watching the temp closely as it hovered at 32 degrees because we were driving through rainstorms which could easily have made the roads icy if the temp dropped even slightly. We arrived at his parent's house in time for a quick lunch before the family Christmas gift exchange. Then, it was off to "the Church basement" where his parents had put together an "open house" to celebrate our marriage for all their relatives and friends who weren't able to travel to Austin for the wedding in September. It was non-stop smiling and meeting new people for me. It wore me out. After a couple hours of that, then the festivities evolved into a more general family Christmas party with dinner followed by a family photo session. I can't believe I survived. We then had to hit the road for the 2-hour drive back to Columbus, which made for a very long and absolutely exhausting day.

We were both obviously wiped out and slept in very late today, only awakening when we realized that we had less than an hour until check-out of the hotel! We had a few hours to ourselves this afternoon to spend in Columbus before flying out, so we ventured over to the Short North Arts District for lunch and window-shopping. We had lunch at the Surly Girl Saloon, which was quite fitting since I have been quite the surly girl lately.
Lunch was yummy - I had the famous 3-way chili and a cayenne chocolate cupcake for dessert. We then walked around looking at the shops and art galleries that fill the area.
With a few minutes to spare before having to head to the airport, we popped in at the Andy Warhol exhibit at the Wexner Center for the Arts at Ohio State. We didn't have enough time to formally go through the exhibit though since we had to dash off to catch our plane. The airports were much busier today than when we flew out on Thursday, but we didn't have any major problems other than a slight weather delay in Memphis and realizing that we were headed to the wrong gate when we made our connection in Memphis thinking that we were going back to Austin when we were actually headed back to DFW! Doh!

So, now we're back in Dallas, Lewisville to be exact. We're going to have lunch with my mom tomorrow before making the drive back to Austin. I'm gonna need a vacation after all this before going back to work on Monday!

On a positive note, my knee seems to FINALLY be on the mend. Until today I have still been having a lot of pain (I described it to K as feeling like I got hit in the knee with a hammer to which he replied that I did get hit in the knee with a big rock) and it has been hard to bend and walk (still no running either). I can't wait to be able to run again. And, I'm sure K can't wait for that either!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Christmas funk...

It totally sucks that I have to work on Christmas Eve. There are a surprising number of us here today, including a couple of the judges who have a morning docket. Yes, I know that I could have taken one of my vacation days in order to have the holiday off, but I don't think that I should have had to in order to be off on CHRISTMAS EVE. Come on.

I am worried about my knee. It's been several days now since the fall, and it still hurts. It's still oozing gunk out of it too. My boss scared me yesterday and said that I should have gone to the ER to get stitches. To me, it looks like the new skin is forming around it, although the gash is still pretty deep.

So, I obviously haven't been able to run since Saturday. K will tell you that is doing wonders for my mood on top of everything else. Even if my knee were to magically be better within the next day, we'll be traveling until Sunday so it will be hard to get a run in. Then of course I am catastrophizing and worried that I am out of shape and fat with no hope of being able to run Rocky in February with this week lost from training.

I'm not excited about our travel plans - traveling each and every day from now until Sunday. I would much rather stay at home and spend the holidays quietly by ourselves or go somewhere fun like skiing with my dad and brother who are in Colorado for the vacation or to the beach. I haven't even packed yet, and we need to hit the road as soon as I get off work.

I have been giving K fits about what to get me for Christmas. I told him and my family that there really isn't anything that I need. But, of course, K is in a bind because I'll still be disappointed that he didn't come up with something special.

Hope you are having a better holiday than I am so far!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Trail run = fall

Today did not go as planned, as things often don't.

We met up with some folks from HCTR for a no-drop tour of the Greenbelt. The organizer, Henry, was planning on running for 8 hours today allowing others to bail out whenever they needed to. I was hoping for 5-6 hours, but only ended up with around 3 hours due to a fall a little less than 2 hours in. I was really disappointed because one of my goals for today was to work on nutrition, as I had carefully planned and prepared some different foods to eat along the way. One thing that does look promising though is my pre-run breakfast because I didn't have GI issues during the run for the 2nd week in a row today. I'll focus on the small successes right now. I guess another small success is that my legs felt good, other than my knee after I fell. :)

The weather today was a challenge with 60+ temps and high humidity again, but thankfully no 20-30mph wind like last weekend! I seemed to manage my hydration okay - much better today with my Camelbak than negotiating water stops every 1-2 miles at the race last weekend. Again, another small success. Can you tell I am trying to find the positive? See, that's me working on the mental part of training.

Many of the other folks running today were training for Bandera, so we ran some of the lesser used trails that were a bit more technical to prepare for the challenging rocky terrain out there. I felt really skittish and tentative running those sections, in part because I haven't been running terrain like that since our PD group ended in October. I'm way out of practice. Fortunately, Rocky is not like that - the terrain there is much more to my liking. Another factor that made it even more challenging today was that the rocks were incredibly slippery. SUPER slippery. So, taken together, it was perfect conditions for me to take a spill...and I definitely did. I busted my left knee open pretty good, but what actually seems to hurt even more than my leg is the palm of my hand where I tried to brace myself during the fall. I got my leg cleaned out pretty good when we got home (I had to use the loofah soap again to make sure I got all the dirt and debris out - OUCH).

After I fell, I kept going for about an hour it seemed. I called K, who had turned back shortly before I fell, and told him to pick me up at HOL which he did. Breakfast tacos at Rudy's were definitely in order after that. Yum.

Depending on how my knee feels tomorrow (and the weather), I may try to get in a few more miles on my legs to make up for the lost mileage today. I'm definitely looking forward though to the Jemez group starting in a month so that I can build my confidence back up on the more technical trails.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Committed...

No sooner had I finished my previous post about likely running the half at Jemez in May than I crawled into bed last night and told K that I was once again considering running the 50k there. I had been going back and forth between the two distances since we first started talking about it, mostly with how it fits with my race plan for next year.

So, what did I just do? I registered for the 50k.

I'm sure K would like to have me committed right about now. As he somewhat jokingly said last night, my running problem is becoming his problem.

So, the race calendar for 2009 looks like this so far:

Bandera 50k 01/10/09 - "C" race (solely training run for Rocky)
Rocky Raccoon 50 mile 02/07/09 - "A" race (first race at that distance)
Prickly Pear 50k 03/07/09 - "B" race (should be "easiest" 50k course I have done so will hope for a PR)
Jemez Mountain Trail Run 50k 05/16/09 - "A" race (first race at elevation)
St. George Marathon 10/03/09 - "A" race (BQ)

Of course all of that is contingent on me remaining healthy and focused. We'll see how the year goes!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Thursday night ramblings....

-Today is K's 29th birthday. 29. He's such a young pup. :) I still think of him as older, closer to my age though. It was a pretty low-key day with dinner at Louie's 106 downtown followed by yummy cheesecake at home that my mom ordered from Junior's in New York. His gifts are coming - a ski trip to Breckenridge, CO in a few weeks and tickets to a Spurs vs. Trailblazers game to see former OSU star Greg Oden play in the spring.

-I really need a break from work. I'm wiped out. Unfortunately, the upcoming holidays will be quite busy. We're making our third trip to Dallas within the past month on Wednesday. I have to work on Christmas Eve, although we are hoping that it will be an early release day (especially since we didn't get out early on the day before Thanksgiving). We're driving up to Dallas as soon as I get off work and will see my mom before flying out of DFW on Thursday afternoon to head to Ohio. We arrive in Columbus on Christmas evening and plan to stay there overnight before driving out to see his family on Friday. Then, we're flying back to DFW on Saturday evening and driving back to Austin on Sunday. So it will be a very quick (and likely tiring with some form of travel each day) trip. In part we are doing this so that I don't have to take off any additional days from work because I am hoarding all of my vacation days for a 2 week trip to Singapore next summer. The other issue is that I didn't want to visit his family for very long. Continuing to illustrate why I feel the way that I do about his family, we received a Christmas card from one of his sisters earlier this week that was addressed on a typed label to K then my name was handwritten in after it, almost as an afterthought. Hmph.

-I have all but decided that I am going to turn down the offer to take over my colleague's private practice. It's somewhat hard for me to believe that I have now turned down an interview at one of the nation's top children's hospitals which likely would have turned into a job offer and an offer to take over a lucrative private practice in favor of remaining in my current job. A lot of different factors went into the decision-making process. I have also decided that I am not going to teach again, for now at least. While the extra money was nice (and afforded a few extra luxuries - mostly spoiling K) and it offered some variety in my professional responsibilities, it was more than I want to take on right now. Maybe that will change in the future, but for now it's the right decision.

-I miss training with a group, seeing my running buddies, and training for a common goal. We saw some of our trail running peeps at the Brenda's Christmas party last week which was nice. And, we'll likely see many of them at Bandera in a couple of weeks. We're then going to join the Rogue training group for Jemez which starts at the end of January. I think several people from our Palo Duro group may do this one as well. After Palo Duro, I remember talking with Joe about the Jemez race and telling him that I was nervous about doing a mountain run, but he said that's why I should do it then! If I'm going to do it, then I want to do it with Joe and the others. I haven't decided on the distance yet though, but I may just do the half marathon because of the timing of the race at the beginning of marathon training for St. George.

-No apparent problems with recovery from White Rock last weekend. I had a massage on Tuesday evening and my legs felt great afterwards! I was somewhat sore on Monday, but didn't really have any problems walking or climbing up/down stairs. This just reinforces for me that I did the right thing by not "racing" or trying to run any harder than I did. I didn't want to prolong my recovery and compromise my longer term goal of running the 50-miler in February.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

White Rock...

When did 26.2 miles turn into a "training run"? Seriously. That's nuts. I'm nuts.
Let me back up and tell you how I ended up at the start line of the White Rock Marathon in Dallas this morning. My training plan for Rocky had me scheduled for 24 miles today. Since I'm training on my own right now, it's harder to get in these long long runs on my own without support. So, I opted to run White Rock to get in the miles on a marked course with fluids provided along the way. When I registered for the race, I had to give a projected finish time. Since my plan was to run solely as a training run, then K and I figured 4:30ish would be reasonable. With how strong I have felt lately, I figured I could run faster than that if I actually tried...and if everything else fell into place. However, with today's projected weather forecast of 60+ degrees at the 8am start rising to 70+ degrees after noon coupled with 20-30+ mph winds, I wisely abandoned that plan and just focused on finishing.

Logistically, this was an "easy" race in terms of traveling, packet pick-up, proximity of our hotel to the start/finish line, and overall race organization. A+ in all those areas.

The race started at 8am, which I was initially excited about since I would get to sleep in a little bit. However, that quickly changed when I realized how warm it was going to be today. With that in mind, I wish we would have started at 7am.

The race was seeded into 3 corrals by projected finish time. I started at the front of the second corral. K gave me a kiss and sent me on my way. Since he doesn't feel that comfortable driving around Dallas on his own, I wasn't sure whether I would see him along the course. But, he made it over to mile 2ish so I stopped to stretch for a minute when I saw him because my shins were feeling tight. Thankfully, that went away in the next mile or so.

I really enjoyed the first half of the course because it went through some of my old stomping grounds when I lived in Dallas. I ran by effort and never looked at my watch. I had no idea about any of my mile splits - I didn't want to stress about it. Thankfully, the wind didn't really make it's presence known until we hit the lake, a little less than halfway in by that point. And, that is reflected in my times. For those of you who remember, recall the wind tunnel that the 20-miler was in Round Rock back in 2006. That's what this was like. The winds were so strong that I could barely maintain forward momentum at times. And, the lake is about 9 miles around. It just sucked pure and simple. Mentally this was a bad stretch for me.

I was also having a hard time managing hydration in the warm temps. Thankfully, there were aid stations nearly every mile on the course, and I stopped at nearly all of them - walking through and taking 2 cups each time. I never got to the point where my stomach was sloshing, although the last couple of miles nearly approached that feeling. The good news is that I didn't have to make a bathroom stop on the course! That was definitely a positive.

I saw a friendly face at around mile 18.5 and stopped for encouragement and to check in. That's when I got the news that K was just up ahead past mile 19. I really needed that pick me up! K was positioned at the beginning of the "Dolly Parton" hills, which really weren't much hills in my opinion. I stopped to talk with K for a few minutes and told him that I would probably finish in around 4:30.

The last few miles were on a slight downhill on Swiss Avenue back into downtown, which was a welcome relief. The wind came and went a little during this stretch, but my main issue here was the rising temps and hydration. I just wanted to be done. And, I was in 4:33. Again, not stellar, but appropriate for the conditions, my training, and the purpose of the run.

Next weekend I get to do this all over again. Lucky me! But this time I am definitely running trail. Ah, sweet trail.

Monday, December 8, 2008

"So, what did you learn today?"

As we were walking back to the car after the race yesterday morning, K asked me what I learned that day (it better be something good because he was not gung-ho about me running this weekend or waking up early to come support me at the race). It was an excellent question!

So, here's what I learned from running Decker yesterday:

1. I reminded myself that Decker is a hilly, boring course (that I am grateful was not made worse by the typical Decker winds yesterday).

2. I have got to get my GI issues under control, although the culprit yesterday was clearly eating lots of "bad" foods at our Christmas party on Saturday night. Regardless, this is a huge issue that I need to address before I really try to PR in a distance race because making a bathroom stop obviously takes time.

3. I have to improve the mental aspect of my running. Physically, I felt fine yesterday. But, mentally, I just let go at several points in the race, mostly when I hit the hills in mile 10. Thank goodness for the Rogue waterstop shortly after that so that I could mentally regroup with their support.

4. I am beginning to wonder (again) whether my beloved Wave Creations are the "best" shoe for me. I have some serious blisters that have developed, always in the same spots too. I just don't want to have to go through the whole shoe shopping thing again though. Ugh.

5. I am a stronger runner (duh) than I was when I previously ran that race in 2005, although if I remember correctly I hadn't been feeling well and was doped up on Dayquil when I ran it that time. Phillip and I ran together, and I remember reminding him that we didn't have to "race" it per our coach. Mindful of White Rock this weekend, I also did not set out to run aggressively this year.

So, all that being said, I ran 1:57 (which included a bathroom stop at mile 4, walking through water stops, and walking a few hills). Not stellar, but appropriate for the purpose of the run.

I'm hesitant to put this out there, but I feel fairly confident that I can PR at White Rock this weekend (provided that my stomach cooperates!). However, that isn't the goal of this run so I don't want myself to get caught up in that mindset of racing the clock. In my training plan, this is just supposed to be about getting the mileage in, recovering well, and being able to run long distance again next weekend. Besides, my (longer-term) goal is not simply to get a new marathon PR, but it is to qualify for Boston - and, I know that I can't do that this weekend. The plan for that is still at St. George in 2009.

Friday, December 5, 2008

"I have a running problem..."

That is what I told K last night.

I can't stop. That's the problem.

I had been looking forward to the upcoming weekend since it was our first in awhile that didn't revolve around running. It was also designated as an "off" weekend for me in my training schedule for Rocky in February, especially since I haven't had one of those in I can't remember how long.

Just a few short hours after telling K last night just how excited I was about having a running-free weekend, I cautiously approached him saying "I just had a crazy idea...." He knows me well enough to be concerned. He responded that my "crazy ideas" usually wind up with us several hours outside of Austin getting up early to go run somewhere. I assured him that this time it wasn't nearly that far. :)

My initial idea was that we would run the relay at Decker together on Sunday, which he immediately shot down. Well, then fine, I'll run the whole thing myself. So, here we go again...

Oh, and have I mentioned that I'm running the marathon at White Rock next weekend (as a training run for Rocky)?

Yes, I know I have a problem. I even told K that he should hide my running shoes from me (road and trail).

But, no, I don't think that I am overtraining. I take days off appropriately, I really do. And, I also don't necessarily think that I am overracing, although we have certainly run a lot of races over the past few months. I haven't necessarily run all-out intense effort trying to PR at any of them. And, I don't plan to at Decker either (or at White Rock).

I am so grateful that I am able to run again after having a year of inconsistency (and slowness) due to my shin issues. I am vigilant about getting a massage every 2-2 1/2 weeks now, and I don't have any nagging injuries or pains that I am currently dealing with. Perhaps most importantly, I feel invigorated by running again, mostly with the new challenges of pushing my limits to see just how far I can go. I'll get back to working on how fast I can go next year, but for now it's nice to know that the speed is still in there to be drawn out again with the proper training when I'm ready for it. I also enjoy the camraderie with my fellow runners so much, many of whom have become such good friends. So, that is why I will be up early on likely another cold Sunday morning and find myself at the start line with 13.1 miles ahead.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Time...

There just doesn't seem to be nearly enough of it.

Despite the 4-day holiday weekend, I still have several items on my to-do list that went unfinished. And, with my students turning in their final videos this week and final grades due in two weeks, I don't see how many of the remaining items will get done either. Sigh.

Given that K and I haven't managed the holidays well for the past couple of years, I think we're off to a good start this year. On Wednesday after I got off work, we headed up to Dallas for Thanksgiving with my mom's side of the family. We had been anticipating an early release day at work on Wednesday, but no such luck. So, we didn't hit the road until a little after 5pm...ugh. Traffic was terrible, which was no big surprise. With a brief stop in Belton for dinner at Schoepf's BBQ for dinner, we didn't make it to Dallas until 10:30pm. We stayed at a very cute boutique hotel in downtown Dallas, which we really enjoyed so that was a nice end to the day.

On Thursday morning, we ran the Dallas YMCA Turkey Trot (8 miles), which started and finished a few blocks away from our hotel so it was nice to be able to walk over. It was pretty chilly early in the morning (meaning that I overdressed), but it turned out to be a nice day for running. I was flirting with the idea of running hard just for kicks, but that quickly changed within the first mile due to the crowds. There were thousands of people there who did not seed themselves properly at all...there were walkers and people with dogs who were ahead of us which was really frustrating trying to get going at a decent pace in the first mile or so. Regardless, I'm still okay with how I ran...1:08 including a stop to shed layers.

After the race, we headed out to Lake Ray Hubbard for a yummy Thanksgiving meal at my aunt and uncle's new house. We don't see them very often, so it was a nice change of pace to spend the holiday with them. K and I filled up then took home leftovers for dinner.

On Friday morning, we went to the Dallas Museum of Art for the King Tut exhibit. There were some interesting artifacts, many of which were very well-preserved. No trip to Dallas is complete without a meal at Snuffer's so we had lunch there afterwards before dropping my brother off at the airport then heading back to Austin. Thankfully, the drive back was much smoother than the drive up there. Once back home, we decided to go out on Friday evening to run a couple of errands and do some Christmas shopping, which included the purchase of a new TV for K. He's so spoiled.

We ran more errands on Saturday, which included getting our Christmas tree and decorating it last night to get ready for the holiday party we are hosting for my co-workers next weekend. We decided to splurge on getting our house cleaned by a service this week because I just simply don't have enough time to get everything done by myself.

I got up early this morning to do my long run. The plan was for 20, but I was really lacking in motivation to get out the door and in the first few miles so I wasn't sure how it was actually going to go. I opted to run 2 full loops on Town Lake, mostly to save time because I didn't really have the time to drive somewhere like Bastrop, running on true trail would take me significantly longer to cover the same distance, and I didn't necessarily want the extra pounding from the roads for 20 miles. So, this seemed like the easiest (if not the most interesting) choice. And, it worked out fine. I had a good run and ran a pretty solid, consistent pace to finish in a little over 3 hours + 2 bathroom stops. (Sorry Holly for not stopping to chat! I was worried I would have a hard time getting going again if I stopped.).

With my run done, it was time for lunch and a nap before going to see Cirque Dreams Jungle Fantasy at The Long Center this evening. What a fun show! We topped off the night with dinner at Polvo's. Now it's time for another busy week ahead...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

A Sunday jaunt through the woods...

Ah, now I remember what that feels like. Having a bad run. I have been fortunate that I haven't had one of those in awhile. I guess I needed reminding...

I had 18 miles on the schedule for this weekend. Originally, I had planned to run by myself (or meet up with the Bandera group) at Bastrop yesterday morning. However, K had other things in mind for the weekend, and we agreed to run out there together today instead. After sleeping in this morning, we headed out for an afternoon run. The weather wasn't too warm or too cold, so that didn't seem to be a huge factor in how things played out for me.

My plan was to run 2 loops (15.5 miles) + a short out and back to get the additional mileage in. I tried something new for a trail run (or really any run for that matter these days) and ran with K's Ipod Shuffle for a distraction. I generally prefer to focus on the sights and sounds around me while running, as well as my internal experience, so this was pretty different for me...and, I really enjoyed it. I don't think that I will use it on a regular basis, especially on a crowded trail run, but it might serve a good purpose every now and then.

The first loop was relatively uneventful other than the realization that I had forgotten to take my Immodium to prevent GI issues. Fortunately, I was able to make it to a bathroom at a campsite nearby when the time came. With that detour and backtracking to the start afterwards, I was able to get a little extra mileage in before starting out on my second loop. I saw K a couple of miles in, as he was getting close to finishing up, and told him that this was much harder than the races we've run the past two weekends (San Antonio Half and Rocky Raccoon 25k), both of which I ran much faster than I ran today. He suggested that I just turn back and head back in with him which would have put me at about 12 miles total for the day. I told him that the only person that would hurt would be me in the end, so I pushed on. I finally finished the second loop and made it back to the car only to tell K that I had one more mile to go so I was going to run it on the road and he could pick me up at the nearby campground. I think he was stunned by that. But, I did it. 18 miles, mission accomplished.

And, a good reminder to always respect the distance.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Relief...

Such a good feeling.

I am relieved that Ohio State beat Michigan today. If not, K would have been in a very negative mood which would have put a damper on our weekend. To show my support for the game today, I made Three-Way Cincinnati Chili for lunch today, which apparently is quite the big deal in Ohio. One of my staff members gave me a couple of the local brands of chili mix with the recipe to fix "if I am truly going to be an Ohio wife." I didn't know what to expect, but it was actually quite yummy and I think K enjoyed the nostalgic meal as well.

I am relieved that I (finally!) just finished writing all of my thank-you notes from the wedding within the 3-month recommended timeline. Whew! That has been a task that has been hanging over my shoulders since we got back from the honeymoon, but it seems like our time has been filled with so many other things since then (out of town running trips, teaching stuff, etc.) that it has just been impossible to find the time. This was the first weekend of the past few where we were (a) in town, (b) not focused on running (although I have an 18-miler out at Bastrop planned for tomorrow), and (c) not busy doing things for my class.

I am relieved that the semester is almost over. There is one more class remaining after Thanksgiving, but it just consists of the students completing their course evaluations and turning in their final video/paper projects so I don't have any prep work to do for it. However, I will be quite busy for the 1 1/2 weeks after that grading their projects and getting the final grades in. I'm really skeptical of whether this is something that I want to do again. While the extra money has been nice and has allowed me/us to do some additional things, it has been A LOT of work on top of my full-time job. It has come at the expense of time with K and friends, as well as time for myself. I have been so focused on career for so many years at the expense of other things that I don't want to go back to that. Other things are more important to me at this point in my life.

I am relieved that K and I have each other. We had a (very) rare night out downtown last night for dinner and drinks with a single friend of K's. It reminded me (as if I needed reminding) that I am so glad to be out of that lifestyle. I think K might have even realized it too.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Rock 'n Roll San Antonio Half-Marathon...

Our trip to San Antonio started out well enough, but there were several bumps along the way, particularly in relation to race events.

We drove down on Friday right after work without any problems. We grabbed a quick bite to eat once we got to town then headed over to the AT&T Center for the Spurs vs. Rockets game. We had a good time. The Spurs came from behind at the end to win, so the atmosphere was pretty charged. Afterwards, we got settled into our hotel and called it a night.

We got up early on Saturday morning because we had a lot of things on the agenda. However, K getting to watch the Ohio State game at 11 was the key event. I wanted to get my packet early before the crowds got too bad and I didn't want to be rushed going through the Expo, so I went to the Alamodome by myself when they opened at 9am. This was the first irritation about the race - having to pay 10 bucks to park in a lot on the far side of the building from where the entrance was and walking a quarter mile (at least) in super strong winds to get in only to be underwhelmed by the Expo itself. I like a good Expo, but I was in and out within 40 minutes. After that, I made a quick trip to El Mercado, a Mexican shopping area downtown, before heading back to the hotel to check on K. Once the game was over, I took K down to the Expo to pick up his packet. I dropped him off while he ran in to get his packet so that we wouldn't have to pay for parking again. Unfortunately, it took longer than expected because they were limiting the amount of people who could get in at one time since the crowds were so big by that point. Once we finished there, we headed out to a shopping center in the far northwest part of town to get a item that was on our wedding registry that was only available at that particular Macy's. What we didn't count on though was a travel nightmare because they closed the highway at that particular junction. It was a total mess. After much searching for the item, our trip to Macy's was a success thankfully. Then, it was time to find a place to get some pasta for dinner. We were definitely not in the "busy" part of town with the majority of the out-of-towners for the race, but the wait time at all the Italian restaurants was still pretty long. I think the city was seriously underprepared for what it got with the influx of participants and spectators for the race (the race was capped at 30,000). Once we got the requisite pasta dinner, we went to bed fairly early because 5:30am comes pretty quickly. I got a decent night's sleep, although K didn't fare so well.

We were up at 5:20 this morning and left the hotel by 6am. Silly us because we (along with thousands of other runners) thought that this would be sufficient time to get to the race before it started at 7:30am. We did what the race organizers wanted us to do in terms of parking at the AT&T Center and getting bused over to the start area. The highway was jammed getting there. Once we finally parked, this is what we were greeted with:
It was absolutely ridiculous! It took us about 20 minutes to get through the line until we got on a bus. We were on the bus at the start time of the race (7:30am). And, there were still THOUSANDS of people waiting for a bus at that point, even more than when we had arrived! I'm not kidding. When we were finally dropped off, we had to walk several blocks to the start area. Once we arrived, it was organized chaos. The race apparently had not been delayed to wait for the arrival of all the runners so the corrals were being sent off in waves. We still had to drop our gear though. After that, we made our way up to the start area and jumped in with the next corral being sent out (which was much slower than our original assigned corrals). Not the best way to start a race obviously. I have no idea what they did for all those people who were still waiting to get on a bus at that point!

So, finally, I'm running. Since I have revised my training goals to focus on the 50-miler at Rocky in February, my plan today was not to race because this really should have been an "off" weekend for me in my new training plan. Mission accomplished. I ran comfortably easy and never let myself get caught up in my splits or running a hard effort. Overall, I'm pleased with how I ran (1:56 which included a 2-minute stop to take off my top layer and put up my gloves after mile 3), especially since this was the longest distance that I have run on the road since Big Sur in February. The course could be pretty fast, I think, as there were only two small hills on the course, although one was at mile 13! After the finish, I was ready to get the heck out of there. There was just too many people everywhere. K and I met up at our designated meeting spot then started the trek out to the buses to get shuttled back to the AT&T Center. This involved more walking and stairs, so I'm sure the marathoners did not care for that. More walking around the AT&T Center to get to our car from where we were dropped off by the bus too.

Given that this was the inaugural event for the race, there are obviously a lot of kinks that they need to work out for next year. I also felt like the whole "Rock 'n Roll" thing was somewhat overrated. Overall, I wasn't terribly impressed. I'm just glad that this wasn't a key race for me.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Another great race weekend!

After work yesterday, we drove out to Huntsville for the Rocky Raccoon 25k. Neither of us had been out there before, so it was something different for us. I was hoping to make it there by 7:30pm in time to pick up our packets so that we could sleep in a little extra this morning, but no such luck. We arrived in Huntsville around 7:45 and set about finding something for dinner. There weren't many choices for a pasta dinner, so we settled on a buffet (which ended up having pasta) instead. It was good, quick, and close to our hotel so it was a good choice. Once we arrived at our hotel, we were surprised to learn that it had just opened less than 2 weeks ago. As a result, our room with a hot tub in it wasn't ready yet, so we got a regular suite instead. If you ever find yourself in Huntsville, I highly recommend the Holiday Inn out there! We settled in for the night and watched some tv before calling it a night.

Since we were running the 25k instead of the 50k today, we got the benefit of some additional sleep since our race didn't start until 8am. What a treat! We even got to take advantage of the complimentary breakfast at the hotel before leaving for the race start. It was a short drive over to Huntsville State Park where we were greeted by this sign shortly after driving through the park entrance...
Needless to say, it freaked me out.

We arrived at The Lodge and picked up our packets then sat in the car for awhile to stay warm. The start was very near the water which was covered with fog.
In true trail running fashion, the race start was somewhat anti-climatic. The race director made a few announcements then sent us on our way. There were several hundred folks running and we spent the first mile on the road before entering the trail. I didn't really have a race plan for today other than to just run by how I felt, especially since I wasn't exactly sure what the course would be like. I thought 2:30ish would be a good "A" goal though. The course ended up reminding me a lot of Bastrop (which I always enjoy!) - lots of pine trees, roots, and sand (not that I enjoy running through sand though), but with less rollers. The first half of the course had several long straightaways (uphill and downhill) and I really got to let loose with several sub 9 minute miles here. I couldn't believe how great my legs and cardio felt (running at that comfortably "fast" pace). The second half of the course was more winding, over bridges, and through swampland (which K dubbed as "Alligator Alley"). My miles were slightly slower here due to the terrain change, as well as likely to my complete lack of nutrition (other than a few chips for salt at aid stations) and inconsistent hydration. I don't know what I was thinking! I was feeling so good (and I wouldn't say that I ever really bonked) and I think I got caught in the mindset that I'm "only" running 15.5 miles so it's not that important as it had been on my longer long runs. Lesson learned. I made it through though without the GI issues that I usually have (thanks Stephanie for the tip about taking Immodium pre-race). Anyway, I still finished feeling quite strong with a major kick at the end (so I know I had way too much left in me) and met my goal with a time of 2:34. I know I could have run faster too.

K did not set out to race today, rather he wanted to run easy and enjoy himself. He ran easy, but I don't think he enjoyed himself. We didn't hang around long after the race was over, but we stopped at the HCTR aid station on our way out of the park since it was near the road. We talked to Joe and Robert for a bit. Joe asked me how I liked the course and I told him that I really enjoyed it. He said that whenever I am ready to move up to the 50-mile distance then he directs a 50 and 100-mile race out there in February (also called Rocky Raccoon). Well, I think I'm ready (for the 50-miler). Yes, you read that right. That is my next goal race, and I've already mapped out a training schedule for it which fits pretty well with some other running and non-running things going on in the next couple of months. I'm excited!!!! (I think that K is less excited about it than I am though. And, no, he has no plans to run that distance...ever).

On our way back to the hotel, we passed the HUGE statue of Sam Houston on the side of the highway.
We were fortunate to get a late check-out at the hotel, which worked out perfectly for K to get to watch the Ohio State game before we headed back to Austin this afternoon.

All in all, the trip was a success! And, I'm looking forward to doing it again.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Tuesday night events...

We had a pretty packed evening today. I went for a 5-mile run in the neighborhood after work then got ready to go the HCTR meeting at Mangia afterwards. It was nice to see some familiar faces from our Palo Duro group, as well as many new ones. We got to hear about several races from different folks, including the 100-miler at Cactus Rose out at Bandera last weekend. As we were leaving, I told K that I'm not *that* crazy...but I think I am refining my boundaries and realizing that I just might be 50-miler crazy, probably sooner rather than later. K wasn't surprised by my statement. After the meeting, we went to an election party at Jovita's hosted by some of my co-workers. There was a good turnout of folks, and we stayed until the announcement of the winner. I have nothing to say on that topic.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Diversity...

This weekend was quite busy for us (as usual) and filled with a variety of things.

After K and I got into an argument on Friday regarding his indecision about what to bring to the Halloween party we were going to that night, I decided to boycott the holiday (even though I had really been looking forward to it). K went to the party by himself, while I went for a short run in the neighborhood and had some much appreciated couch time with the DVR. The porch light wasn't working, coupled with my negative mood for dealing with people at that point, so I had a bucket full of Halloween candy that I let sit on the coffee table. I made K take it to work today so that I wouldn't be tempted by having it in the house.

On Saturday, we had to make nice with each other because we had a lunch meeting with the psychologist and his wife who are interested in selling me the private practice. They live just around the corner from us here in Travis Heights so we went to their house for lunch and an overview of the practice. I knew most of the broad picture already, but I was interested in having K hear the information and have the chance to ask questions.

Then, it was off to get a massage in the afternoon before heading out to Dripping Springs that evening for a house concert hosted by my boss at their new space they are building out there for musicians to play at. The weather was perfect, the music was great, and it was nice to get out of town and enjoy a slower pace for a few hours.

I took advantage of the time change on Sunday morning to get an extra hour of sleep before heading out for my run. I ran from our house out to Mayfield Park (via Scenic) then back on 35th to Exposition to Lake Austin Blvd. I cut my run short at about 12 miles total and had K pick me up at the Rock because I just wasn't mentally into being out there on the roads. I'm starting to seriously wonder if I really want to run roads again, for now at least. Physically, I felt fine, which is good. It's hard to believe that I'm still only 2 weeks out from Palo Duro too.

In the afternoon, we went shopping at Crate & Barrel and Macy's to get some of the remaining items on our wedding registry. Then, we topped off the day with dinner at Curra's.

The next couple of weekends will be busy in their own way. We have races out of town this weekend and next weekend. My students are also turning in their 2nd video/paper projects on Wednesday so I have to find time to get them graded in between everything else going on.

And, somehow I thought that things would slow down after the wedding....Silly mel.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Married fun...

Earlier this week I read about the "Annual Spooky Trail Run" hosted by Texas Iron on Stephanie's blog. I was immediately intrigued and thought it sounded like a lot of fun. So, I "told" K that we were going then we figured out something easy that we could put together for a costume while running. We raided my play therapy materials and I settled on a fairy while K was immediately drawn to being a conqueror (it suits him quite well!). So, we joined in on the fun for a short trail run on the Greenbelt tonight which included a "headless" mountain biker, checkpoints with candy, snakes on the trail, and folks in the bushes yelling and spraying silly string. We started around 6:45pm so it was still somewhat light for the first couple of miles, but given my dislike of trail running in the dark I turned back pretty early guided by my headlamp. Overall, it was a fun time...fun for a married running couple that is.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

My husband is famous! :)

Nice article about K on the Rogue website...

Lucky...

I feel so fortunate that (a) K and I enjoy each other so much (that's obviously a good thing since we're married!), and (b) that we are able to share a lot of our free time doing things together. Last night we enjoyed a 5-mile run on the Greenbelt ("together" as much as possible considering our different paces) followed by dinner at Rudy's. Two of our favorite things! Then, I spent the rest of the evening preparing for class tonight. Today we also had a rare treat in that we got to have lunch together since I was attending a training downtown. K picked me up and we wandered around looking for an "easy" place to get to and park before stumbling into a Mexican restaurant (Santa Rita Tex-Mex Cantina) that we had never been to before. We still had a little time to spare before I had to be back so we stopped at Polka-dots for dessert! Yum! Since I will be gone with class for most of the night tonight, it was nice to get a little extra K time today. Lucky girl indeed.

Monday, October 27, 2008

What am I afraid of?

In keeping with my past couple of runs, I decided to continue reminding myself tonight what it feels like to run comfortably "fast." So, I did a 2-mile warm-up from RunTex to Mopac then did the Enfield 4 followed by a cooldown back to RunTex for a little under 8 miles total. What I learned about where I am right now...it takes me a little while to build up to a "fast" pace but once I'm there it feels comfortable and I'm able to run faster with the same perceived effort (my splits for the 4 miles were 8:59, 8:46, 8:33, 8:12). I felt strong through the hills, so I have trail running to thank for that I think. Given that I haven't focused on speed in nearly a year now, it's not a bad place to start again. That is if I want to. While I was running, I also reflected on why I don't like to run "fast," even though I know I can (fast for me at least). First of all, it hurts and as the name of my blog states I don't like to hurt. And, equally important, I start putting immense pressure on myself to succeed and I don't want to fail. Then, I get back to the point where I was last summer when running stopped being fun. For now, a small first step might be for me to set a time goal for the Rock 'n' Roll San Antonio half in a few weeks - not necessarily trying to PR or anything, but at least something to shoot for to try to push myself rather than giving myself permission to just run easy. We'll see...

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Reclamation...

For an "off" weekend, we sure have been busy! We took advantage of (a) actually being in town, (b) me not having to spend the entire weekend working on stuff for my class, and (c) not spending hours running or recovering from running which allowed us to focus on our house. Our mission was to "reclaim" our house from the chaos of the wedding that we never really had time to recover from since we've been going non-stop (in one way or another) since the honeymoon. I offered to host the Christmas party for my co-workers again this year, so that provided the pending deadline that I/we needed to make this a priority. We unwrapped 95% of the wedding gifts then had to discard all of the boxes/wrappings and find a home for everything (in our already packed house). Overall, I feel good about the progress that we made, although we still certainly have plenty more to do to get this house in the condition that I would like (and that is still very far from me being perfectionistic about it!).

In running news, K and I went for a short run together on the Greenbelt Thursday evening so that I could make sure everything still worked after Palo Duro. Thankfully, it did. Friday and Saturday we also ran, but mostly we ran for free food. On Friday evening, we went to RunTex to meet Chris Carmichael of Carmichael Training Systems and Adam Wilk, a Team Timex athlete. The event was sponsored by Runner's World and consisted of a brief Q&A with both guys followed by a run on the 4-mile loop then pizza. The run essentially turned into a short tempo workout for me because I was running much faster to keep up with the pack than I have in a loooong time. Likewise, we did the Taco Run at Rogue on Saturday morning to remember what road running feels like. We ran 7-miles and, again, I found myself running faster than I wanted to. And, I'm not sure I liked it so much. I missed running trail - where the trail dictates how fast you can go in most cases and where I don't get sucked into running other people's pace because of ego. I got a massage yesterday and, as expected after the race, everything was pretty tight. So, I'm going to get in sooner rather than later for another massage next weekend.

We also managed to fit in some time with friends who we don't see very much. I did my first duty as an AMD wife yesterday. One of Kurt's co-workers is having a baby in December, so I went to his wife's baby shower at Chez Zee for brunch. And, K went to the diaper party for the husband last night. Then, we met Matt and Jennifer for lunch/brunch today at Zax. Both were nice outings with good friends.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

All good things must end...

Tonight we had our post-race happy hour at NXNW. There was a good turnout of folks from our training group, as well as a few other trail runners who weren't necessarily in our group. This has been such a great experience for us, from the new friends we met, getting to work with Joe, exploring local trails (in and out of Austin), testing my limits, and of course culminating with the race itself. I am sad to see it come to an end. I like what Joe said about completing the race and the training group - "There are more programs, more races, more adventures...but for this moment, you can file it away and recall when you need a good smile or a laugh. Now, its time to move on to the next adventure." Indeed. But, choosing what to do next is proving to be the hard part (more on that in another post...).

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Palo Duro Trail Run 50k 10/18/08

Yesterday was undoubtedly one of my best running days that I've ever had. The whole experience was satisfying and fulfilling in so many ways.

We awoke to a 4:45am wake-up call, although the nerves/excitement had actually awoken me a little earlier. We checked the weather and it was approximately 45 degrees, which likely meant that it would be even cooler inside the canyon. I put on my race gear with warm-up clothes on top for pre-race. We met up with Kelly S. and Dawn from our running group in the lobby at 5:15am and carpooled over to the park. The park gates didn't open until 6:00am, but we wanted to get in line early so that we would get a good parking spot. We actually ended up being 2nd in line and had plenty of time in the car to eat breakfast and stay warm until the gates opened. Thankfully, the parking lot where we parked was very near to the start/finish area, so we didn't have to walk too far with all of our belongings.

We checked in for our respective races then found a spot near the drop bag/aid station/trail to set up our chairs and get settled in. At that point my only concern was about staying warm. It was COLD, and I was second guessing whether I should run (at least the first loop) in tights and a pullover. But, then I saw Joe who was wearing shorts and a short-sleeve shirt. I figured he knows best, so I stripped off my warm-up pants and pullover a few minutes before walking over to the start.

K kissed me goodbye and wished me luck then it was go time. After a moment of silence to honor Red, we were sent on our way. I was with Stephanie at the start area, but quickly lost her as I tried to maneuver my way through the crowd to get in a good position on the single-track trail. I was reminded yet again that I really don't like running trail in the dark that much because it's hard to make out the changes in terrain, even with a headlamp. Thankfully, it got light out sooner than I was expecting, although it was probably a good way to start since it kept me from going out too fast.

I was definitely cold for the first few miles, but warmed up before too long. I had heard that the race is pretty flat, so I was surprised by the frequent short up's and down's in the first few miles. It wasn't anything too challenging and I was able to run them while keeping a consistent pace. However, I began to rethink that strategy somewhat after I had been leap-frogging with a couple of other runners who were walking the hills and passing me on the flats. As one of the girls passed me, she said "Don't worry, I'll get out of your way on the hills." Hmmm....

My first loop was a 6-mile loop. Other than being cold and running the first few miles slightly slower in the dark, it was pretty uneventful. I came back through the start/finish area and dropped off my long-sleeve shirt, hat, gloves, and headlamp and made a quick stop at the aid station for nutrition. I was out on my way for the 2nd loop at around 1:15ish.

The second loop would take me farther out into the canyon this time for my first 12.5 mile loop. My hands were quite cold for the first few miles and I was regretting my decision to ditch my gloves, but they definitely warmed up within 3-4 miles into that loop. There were a few guys ahead of me on this loop so it was nice to have someone else within eyesight, while still being able to enjoy the solitude of running by myself. My GI issues reared their ugly head again at around mile 10, just after I had left an aid station with a port-a-potty too. I debated going back, but I didn't want to backtrack. I considered improvising by going slightly off course, but I was afraid of stumbling upon a rattlesnake or getting stuck by a cactus. I had to slow down and pause a couple of times to try to settle it down before I finally hit an aid station with a port-a-potty at mile 15ish. So, I took a somewhat extended stop at this aid station, but it was necessary and I felt so much better for the rest of the race once that was resolved. I was looking forward to coming back through the start-finish area this time because I would see K and the other 20k'ers there for support. I got my Camelback refilled, took in some food, and picked up my hat before setting off on my final loop. I was on my way at 3:50.

I had commented to K that my legs were feeling trashed already because of all the up's and down's, which I totally had not been expecting. I had a bad patch between mile 19-20 shortly after I had embarked on my final loop. The sun was out in full force by this point, so it was really bright (hence the need for the hat) and warming up. My legs were screaming with each uphill and downhill. Mentally, I was calculating (never an easy thing to do while running) how long it would take me to finish if I walked the rest of the way. I would estimate that I walked about .5-.75 miles (maybe closer to .5 miles) during this stretch. But, for maybe the first time ever, I was able to pull myself out of the negative self-talk and get myself motivated and going again. From that point I didn't have any more problems. After this setback, I recalculated a projected finish time and I realized that my "A" goal was still well within reach. That was enough motivation for me! I was running again and I never looked back. Yes, my legs were hurting, but I was still maintaining a respectable pace and passing a few runners here and there. I could not believe that I was still moving that well with each passing mile. I had been anticipating that the last 10-15k was going to be a struggle, but it actually wasn't. Mentally and physically, I was doing well and knew that I would make my goal. What an amazing feeling!

With the finish line in sight, I still had enough to give to kick it in and have a really strong finish, especially once I checked my watch and realized that I could get there by 6:45 if I tried. K was there waiting for me. I had done it. 6:45:53 (by my watch). I was so proud of myself.
Afterwards, I enjoyed a finisher's meal of a hamburger and hot dog while we watched a few of the other 50k'ers in our group come in. Then we went back to the hotel for a couple of hours to shower and rest before going back out at 6pm to see the 50 milers finish. It was really great to see the other Rogues come in. Very moving and inspirational. We went to dinner with a few others from our group to celebrate. I was still too keyed up and sore last night to get a good night's sleep. I still can't quite believe I did it.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Rock Star...

6:45:53 "chip" time. 6:46:00 gun time.

I totally exceeded all of my expectations.

Race report to follow.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Canyon, Texas...

Well, here we are. Canyon, Texas. The night before my first 50k. I'm excited. I know, that's weird, right?

We flew out of Austin mid-morning, had a short connection at DFW, and arrived in Amarillo around 1pm. We had a quick lunch there before the short drive to Canyon where we are staying. Since we had a couple of hours to spare this afternoon, I convinced K to go out to Palo Duro State Park so that we could check out the venue for tomorrow's event. It helps to be able to visualize the location and terrain. The weather was great, and I hope that it holds for tomorrow - low will be in the 40's when we start and rising up to the 70's by the time I finish. K, of course, will be done while it's still pretty cool.
Packet pick-up was held at WTAMU close to our hotel in conjunction with a (free) pasta dinner and the pre-race information meeting. There were lots of friendly faces from Austin, so that is comforting. Joe is of course a calming presence as well. This year's race is marked with sadness for many locals and returning trail runners as the race organizer, (Big) Red Spicer, died from cancer a few months ago. Everyone speaks of him quite fondly.So, now it's time to get my gear ready for tomorrow then try to get a good night's sleep. It will be an early am wake-up call as we are shooting to carpool from the hotel at 5:15. The 50k and 50 milers start at 7am, while 20kers start at 7:30am. Sunrise is around 8 here, so I'll have to start with my headlamp. The 50k course consists of a 6-mile loop followed by 2 12.5 mile loops. K will make just one 12.5 mile loop. The start is apparently single-track and I anticipate that it will be pretty slow to start since it will be dark and we'll all be bunched up until the 50k and 50 mile course splits off around 3 miles in. I won't see K until I'm almost 19 miles in getting ready to head back out for my final loop. My goal for tomorrow is obviously to finish and, more importantly, to have fun. Joe starts our workouts by telling us to "Go play." I love that. And, I want to enjoy the experience tomorrow. The canyon is beautiful. I will obviously have a lot of time to be in my head tomorrow - that can easily turn bad if the negative self-talk starts in. But, it can also be a wonderful time to reflect and enjoy the solitude. My race plan is to start slow and keep it slow until the final loop - if I have it to give, then I'll pick up the pace, but if not, then I'll just cruise in. My "A" goal is 6-7 hours, my "B" goal is 7-8 hours, and my "C" goal is just to finish! Regardless of the time, I will be happy with it because I pushed myself and did something that I had never even considered before (after each marathon that I have ran I could not have imagined taking another step and tomorrow I will run 5 more miles, on trails no less!). I'm not going to stress about the time - I will take my time to refuel at the aid stations, potentially change clothes, use the bathroom, etc. because it is necessary to get through the distance.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Better...for the moment at least

10:15pm and I just got home from teaching. Mind you, I left here at 8:20am this morning for my "real" job. Thankfully, class went well tonight. The students appreciated the extensive feedback (and amount of time involved) that I gave them on their assignments, and I think that their anxiety has been reduced somewhat about the next assignment. I got several frantic emails from four (of 13) students on Monday, but I think everything is better now. Thanks goodness because their anxiety was stressing me out! I jokingly told K that I needed to start tonight's class with a relaxation exercise to get them to calm down. Grad students.... :)

I had lunch today with a colleague who I've mentioned before is interested in selling me his practice as he plans to retire early next year. We've had a few conversations about it before over the past few months, and I have expressed my concerns - mainly the stability and security issue. But, obviously, going into a well-established practice lessens that tremendously compared to getting one off the ground yourself. I'm certainly honored that he thinks of me so highly to entrust me with his "legacy" to some extent. I told him that I would keep an open mind, and K and I will likely have dinner with him and his wife sometime soon to talk more about the details.

I missed our final group workout last night because I wasn't feeling good and I needed to prepare for tonight's class. But, I did meet up with everyone afterwards for Joe's pre-race talk. As he talked, it started to hit me that this is happening THIS weekend. I am going to run 31 miles on Saturday. I'm excited to push my limits in that way, but I also felt slightly nervous as Joe talked last night. The more that I think about it though I think it is more about eager anticipation than true anxiety. Now that class is behind me for the week I can finally focus on the race! We are flying into Amarillo on Friday then going to the pasta dinner and pre-race meeting that evening before the race on Saturday. Joe clearly told us to prepare for anything in terms of the weather up there because it is so unpredictable - last year was in the upper 90's, but there have also been times when the runners have been in their ski jackets because it was so damn cold. From what the forecasts are saying (for whatever they are worth, not much according to Joe), the weather should be pretty good for us this weekend. So, I'm sure I'll be stressing out about what to pack tomorrow night while also trying to fit it all in one carry-on bag since we are flying on American.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Not so happy Monday...

As I'm taking stock of how I'm feeling this Monday morning, I noted that I'm feeling tired and run down (not surprising given that things are so go-go-go without much extended down time). These are generally the perfect ingredients for me to get sick, which is almost how I feel right now. As this awareness hit me, I had a flashback to getting sick the week of the Chicago Marathon in 2006. And, well, I kind of have a pretty big race coming up this weekend too. Great.

I'm also still really struggling with the demands of the teaching gig. It is taking a toll on me emotionally, physically, and in my relationship with K as well. As I was ruminating in bed last night, I had another realization - if part of the reason that I am doing this is for the money (which it is), then I could easily be making the same amount (if not more) with one psychological evaluation in private practice with less time required. That put it into perspective.

And, another thing, my pre-race massage that I had scheduled weeks ago (because I'm a planner) got canceled yesterday. There's no way that I can fit one in before we leave on Friday morning either. So, that just sucks.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Nothing left...

I knew this was not going to be a "fun" weekend, but it was worse than I imagined.

In an effort to have some sort of break this weekend, we went to the movies on Friday night ("Body of Lies"). Then, we went to the Super Target at SouthPark Meadows to get a gift for an upcoming baby shower. Man, I love Super Target - I haven't been to that location before, but I might just bear the extra stress of driving on I-35 to go there instead of going to the one that I usually go to on Lamar. We capped off the night with a treat from Amy's Ice Cream. It was a lovely, low-key night out with K.

Since this weekend was an "off" weekend from running, I was looking forward to finally having a chance to sleep in, especially when I was up early several days last week for work and other things. I jumped right in though mid-morning to doing stuff for my class. I had to watch 13 20-minute videos of my students role-playing a therapy session with a classmate and read their accompanying critique paper and transcript analysis. Meanwhile, I had effectively "kicked" K out of the house so that I could focus on my work, so he went out downtown to watch football with friends. After about 6 hours though, I hit a wall. I was wiped out. And, I had 8 more videos to go! I was hoping to take a break with a nice dinner out with K, but that wasn't in the cards. Watching football downtown with friends apparently turned into getting drunk while watching football downtown with friends. I was not happy. So, we had a huge argument instead of my nice dinner out. And, I finished off the night with reviewing yet another video and paper.

So, I woke up (alone) this morning and once again dived right into grading the assignments. Again, I really tried to maintain focus and just plow through it as best I could. I'm relieved to say that I just finally finished. I am absolutely brain dead now though. Wiped out, got nothing left in me.

I really don't know if I can do this. I mean, I know that I obviously "can" because I just did, but I don't know if I want to do this, especially if K isn't willing or able to pick up the slack around the house and provide emotional support to me when it's needed. Again, I worry because this isn't the end either. Tomorrow night, I have to prepare my lecture notes for 3 chapters for class on Wednesday.

And, ya know, work 40+ hours at my full-time job too.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Thoughts for Thursday...

First of all, I just did something that I haven't done in who knows how long. I ran on the road, in our neighborhood no less (Travis Heights = hills, remember). And, I felt so strong. I remember running that loop a lot back when I was having so much shin pain and really struggling with my running overall. It never felt as good as it did tonight. I feel ready for PD next weekend. 31 miles, bring it on! My main goal until then is just not to get hurt, which means no trail running except for our last (easy) group workout next Tuesday. I fell at the beginning of the workout this week as I was going down the HOL. So, I backed off and pulled up the caboose which was a first for me. No need to push it right now. What's done is done. Nothing but rest and a couple more short easy runs over the next week. I can't wait.

Something else that is a first for me/us tonight is that I think that K and I may have just reached an acceptable plan for the holidays (this was a big source of conflict for us for the past two years). We even booked plane tickets 3 months in advance! That never happens because of K's (in) decision-making style. Maybe change is possible. :)

Work has been super busy (and stressful) this week. I feel like I've put in 2 weeks worth of time within the past 4 days. Last weekend seems like forever ago. I'm so relieved that tomorrow is Friday, although I have a weekend full of doing stuff for my class ahead of me. We'll probably have very little fun K & m time this weekend. :(

I've also been gradually working on getting my name changed with all the necessary entities. I have not internalized my new name at all though, and we both keep using my "old" name without really thinking about it. My plan was to still use my maiden name professionally, which I think is making the transition more difficult in other areas because I say and write my maiden name sooo many times a day at work. I've got a lifetime to get used to it, I guess.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Pictures...

We (finally) got all (745) of the wedding pictures from the photographer uploaded.

http://drmelissalong.shutterfly.com/

At some point, I'll also add some that we got from others and from the cameras on the tables.

But, this should be plenty to get you started for now! :)

And, if you want to order any, you can order them directly from Shutterfly.

Enjoy!

Saturday, October 4, 2008

What a day...

This morning found us waking up at 5:30 am at a hotel in College Station. After checking out of the hotel a short while later and hitting the road, I commented to K that this is one of those crazy runner things that we (I) do...driving before the sun is up in another part of the state to go run.

Today, we ran the Trail Twister in Bryan for our last long run before Palo Duro in 2 weeks. The distances were 10k, 30k, and 60k. Those running the 20k in PD (K) were supposed to run 10, while the 50k'ers (me) were supposed to run 25 today. Joe told us not to race this since this wasn't our goal race, and I followed his instructions. My only goal for today was to get the miles in, slow and easy. It was a relatively small race (100-150 participants), including several from our training group who made the trek out there. It was very well-organized, with clear course markings and great aid station volunteers. The course went around Lake Bryan, and it reminded me a lot of the Maze from the Rogue Trail Series in that there were so many twists and turns. Not a lot of rocks thankfully, but plenty of tree roots to jump around. So, back to my run...I didn't feel quite as strong today as I did last weekend in Bastrop, in part likely due to not managing my nutrition and hydration needs as well today and the much higher temps today. I had GI issues again, and after last weekend, I have no shame (whether that's good or bad) about popping a squat in the woods. I also took a spill fairly early on in my run, and had several other close calls too. But, nothing serious, thankfully - just enough to shake me mentally though. So, the plan was to run the 30k easy and then go back out to run the 10k course afterwards to get the mileage in. Now, that was hard. When I crossed the finish line, I told Joe that I didn't think I had another 10k left in me. I was hoping he'd say that's okay and tell me that I had done enough (especially since it was so warm), but nope - he told me to take a break, get some food and fluids, and get back out there taking it very easy. So, that's what I did. I got it done. Now, I'm ready for the taper! And, the big day is 2 weeks from today.

In 10k news, K was first overall in his race. He's K, he can do that. I'm proud of him, and I'm glad that he had such a good run. He got a really cool plaque as his award. Our finisher's medals are pretty cool too.

So, we got back home in the late afternoon with just enough time to shower and get a quick nap before tonight's festivities. We went to see Jackopierce at the Cactus Cafe. The first time that I saw them was at SMU in 1994. 1994! It's still very meaningful every time that I see them. I've seen them in different cities with different people who were important in my life at various periods. And, tonight, K and I saw them for the first time as husband and wife. It was my kind of show too - early (7:30pm) and with seating. I'm old, remember? :)

Now, I'm looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. Then, it's watching videos and grading papers all day...

Sunday, September 28, 2008

It's all about balance...

What I do (professionally) is important, but it's not important enough to be all that I do. That is something that took me awhile to learn. And, this weekend felt like a regression.

K had an enjoyable time at ACL on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. I was supposed to be there enjoying the experience with him and, well, just enjoying being with him. But, that didn't happen. Pretty early in the week I realized that there was no way that I was going to be able to go with my running schedule and teaching demands. So, we ended up selling my ticket. And, here's how the weekend went down...

K and I barely spent a handful of hours together this weekend. He was already gone to the festival by the time I got home from work on Friday, so it was a night at home alone eating my pre-long run dinner of pasta, preparing for my class, and catching up on some shows from the DVR. Then, it was up at 5:30am on Saturday to head out to Bastrop where I was meeting up with a few others who weren't able to go to Bandera for the scheduled long run. I was the first one there so I went ahead and got started. I ran alone, for 22.5 miles. Overall, I had a good run (but had some GI issues during my second loop). I was relieved at how well it went considering my last "long" run was the 17-miler on the day before the wedding three weeks ago. It was lunchtime by the time I made it back home, and K was still home watching football so he made me his famous K burgers. After a pretty short "nap," I went to get a massage while K headed out to the festival. I got home about 5 and had dinner (I was STARVING) then settled in for some more couch time to watch tv last night. Since running dominated my day yesterday, I had to place more priority on teaching stuff today (and that meant not running today). I spent the day/evening working on stuff for my class and taking care of some household stuff (laundry, groceries). And, the thing is that there is still so much more to do.

So, back to my point. I'm worried that I took on too much with this teaching gig. I know it's only 1 class and in some ways I'm playing catch up from the 2 weeks that I was out for the honeymoon. But, I'm concerned because I don't necessarily see this weekend as an anomaly either. My students will be turning in their first (of three) major projects to me this week (which means making time to watch 13 20-minute videos of a mock counseling session and grading their papers) and then they have their midterm exam next week (which means putting the exam together and grading it). So, essentially, I'm worried that all of this will be taking my time away from the non-work things that are really important to me - obviously spending time with K and my friends. Not to mention that our house is a disaster, I have a million thank-you cards to write, and I have lots of miles to run, etc.

The positives though - I really, really do enjoy teaching. I have a great bunch of students, and each week I think that we're going to get out of class early, but we end up staying for the full three hours because we're having such a good discussion. And, even though I haven't gotten my first paycheck yet, the extra income will certainly be nice - mainly, I won't have to stress about money quite so much and it will allow me to do more of the extra things that I/we want to do.

But, I already have a full-time job. And, as much as I gripe about my job, I really do a good job of not bringing work home with me (literally and figuratively) and having a good separation of my personal and professional lives. It's only been in the past couple of years that I've finally been able to achieve that balance, and I guess I'm just worried about losing it.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Monday, September 22, 2008

Home and already overwhelmed....

It's 5:30am and I can't go back to sleep. Partly jet lag? Maybe. Mostly stress? Definitely. We got home yesterday shortly before noon, and this is what we walked into:
It was not quite that bad before we left on our trip two weeks ago. We had put a hold on our mail while we were away, but thankfully K also realized that we should have someone come by the house to check for any packages that may still arrive via UPS or FedEx. And, boy, did they arrive apparently. The first plan of attack was to quickly open all of the wedding gifts to catalog them in order to write thank-you cards in the upcoming weeks then we moved all the gifts to the spare bedroom so that we could actually have a livable living room again. It was the first time in months that our living room didn't look like "Wedding Central." That was an accomplishment.

After a lunch break to Rudy's (our last meal before we left on our honeymoon and our first meal back!), it was back home to unpack, wash/fold/put away 4 loads of laundry, catch up on email/blogs and make plans for some of our upcoming race trips, and just try to get our lives reorganized. K also had to watch the OSU-USC football game that he had recorded from last weekend.

While K went to buy groceries last night, I went out for a 4-mile run to remind myself that I'm still a runner. A runner who is going to run 31 miles in less than a month nonetheless. Unfortunately, we didn't run as much as I had hoped while we were gone (too many other things going on or not good running conditions - very hilly, winding roads with barely enough room for cars in Mykonos). This week and next week are our final two intense weeks before a short taper then the race, so I'll be busy getting my mileage in this week/weekend. In fact, I'm considering going for a 7-mile run right now - I don't think I'm going to be able to go back to sleep.

Then, there's the teaching thing. Since my class didn't meet while I was away, I have to catch up on several chapters of reading that were assigned and prepare lecture notes for the next two weeks before their exam the following week. It's Monday, and class is on Wednesday. I have my trail running group workout tomorrow night. So, it's hard to see where I'm going to have the time to get prepared.

Which brings me to this weekend...ACL is this weekend. But, I am also scheduled to run 22 miles on Saturday and 15 miles on Sunday. Out at Bandera and Lost Maples no less. AND, as I said, catch up on 7 chapters of reading and prepare lecture notes. How it's all going to happen is beyond me. The reality that I am slowly accepting is that ACL just might not happen for me this year. :(

And, this doesn't even count what's in store for me at work in a few hours...

Nothing like a dose of reality to start the day.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Big K's recap of Crete

We arrived late Tuesday night into Heraklion, a major Greek city and the "capital" of Crete. It was a short boat ride but the boat was already late and we were tired. The sun was down and it was dark outside, but unfortunately not on the boat. My hat came in handy again as I put it over my face and closed my eyes, allowing me to get a little rest. As soon as we got to the port and off the boat, Mel quickly hailed a cab amongst the rush of people and cars, and we were lucky enough to share the ride with a couple going to the same hotel. After about 5 minutes, we arrived at the hotel and were immediately pleased. This hotel looked pretty nice. It was recently renovated and has a very clean, modern feel. And even better, they have free internet (thus the length of these last posts). We got to our (sufficiently larger and nicer) room and cleaned up, feeling good about the whole experience, and quickly went to sleep.

The next morning, we had breakfast at the hotel buffet, which was more comparable to the one in Mykonos than in Santorini, a good thing. We were ready to start a day of sightseeing and figuring out the plans for the rest of the trip, but when we got back to the room, the key didn't work. Neither did another one I had obtained, and when I went back to the front desk, they sent the bellman along to try, and that didn't work either. So that was a problem. They ended up telling us to pack our stuff and go to a different room. That room smelled fiercely like smoke, so we requested another and ended up in a real king-size bed (other doubles were two beds pushed together) and a view of the pool area instead of the street. Not too bad. We finally did get out of the hotel and took a short walk to the center, tourist part of town. Heraklion is very much a functional city and not a tourist one, so this was really the only place we saw tourists en masse within the city. We found the state tourism office and asked about getting to/from Samaria Gorge, and the lady there recommended that for simplicity's sake, we use a travel agency rather than try to negotiate the trip on public buses. More on the gorge later, but the important point is it is more than three hours away and there are no direct public buses from Heraklion. So we took her advice and found a place right around the corner to set up the tour for the following day.

After this, we walked around the tourist district some more, window shopping at some of the many mall-variety shops and a few unique ones, getting some pictures at the Morosini Fountain and the Agios Titios church, and taking a stroll down to the old Venetian harbor. We had lunch back by the church and then found our way to the Archaeological Museum. This was one of the things I really wanted to see, but Mel had no interest at that point. So I went inside while she went back to hit the hotel pool. The museum has been under renovation for a couple years and the full site is closed, but they did have a two-room display of some of the collection's best pieces. Most had been excavated from nearby Knossos and other Minoan palaces all over Crete. The collection spanned the entire time of the Minoans and some of the Greek and Roman periods as well, from 3000 B.C. to around 500 B.C. It was quite impressive and the pieces were in great condition given their age. There were many jars and drinking vessels adorned with drawings, wall frescoes, jewelry of gold and other precious metals, a sarcophagus, weapons, and statues. I took pictures of just about every case and was proud to show them off to Mel. After leaving the museum, it was a hot walk back to the hotel, and I changed and met her down at the pool. We caught a few remaining rays of sunlight and then went looking for a place to eat dinner. We wandered for a few blocks and didn't find anything appetizing in one direction, so we came back and checked out the place our taxi driver had recommended the night before. I will refer to the place as "Meat Heaven" :) They had many varieties of meat that you could order in a pita with tzatziki, tomatoes and fries, by itself, or on a dinner platter. We both had pitas with different fillings, and they were delicious! The place was a sight as well: a big gyro cone rotating next to one of the windows, a rotissierie full of chicken and ribs further back, and a flat grill with pork and chicken souvlaki (shish kebabs) in between. Like I said, Meat Heaven. This place would give Rudy's a run for its money. We then had some ice cream and walked to a market to pick up some food and drink for the next morning.

The next day promised to be a long one. We were to be picked up from the hotel at 6am and driven about 3-4 hours to the entrance of the gorge in Omalos. Then we would walk/run 18km through the gorge to the south coast in the town of Agia Roumeli. After that was a boat ride to the nearest town with a road, then it was back on the bus for the return trip to our hotel. The travel agent estimated we would return about 10pm. So knowing this, thankfully we were prepared for the inevitable deviations from the plan that made it even longer. We were waiting outside the hotel at 6 but we ended up not getting picked up until 6:30. The bus was a double-decker and already almost completely full when it arrived. Most of the tourists had probably come from the beach towns 50-100km east of the city. Nevertheless, the bus made a couple more stops along the way as we drove along the coast and through the mountains to the west. Finally the bus was entirely full, and we made a quick stop shortly thereafter for a snack and restroom break. Then on we went, past the cities of Rethymnon and Hania until we turned off the highway (really the only one on Crete) onto a winding route up through more mountains. This was about a 30km distance, but it took nearly an hour to negotiate the many switchbacks and out-of-the-way curves on the road to Omalos.

Samaria Gorge is the longest in Europe and drops from around 4000 feet at the top to sea level over the 18km, most of it in a winding downward path through the first 3km. At the narrowest point the "Iron Gates", the gorge walls are only about 9 feet apart while rising about 1000 feet. Our plan was to run as much of it as possible as a real trail workout, which we have sorely needed on this trip. So we packed up Mel's Camelbak, dressed in our running clothes and trail shoes, and took only necessary items. Most of the tourists were in regular clothes and tennis shoes and had packed like they were going for a short nature hike, so we really stood out. Especially when we started darting around them, going down the path like it was flat, while they were carefully stepping around and between the rocks! That was a lot of fun, seeing the confused and amazed look on people's faces. The trail shoes really made it look easy, and for the most part it wasn't really difficult, except for getting around all the tourists. I spent a lot of the time jumping down the rocks and around people rather than running, so much so that someone commented to Mel: "Your husband is like a goat, jumping around everywhere." We both got a kick out of that, but she was a bit offended because he had assumed she was with me! Wonder why he did so, seeing how she was the only other one dressed that way and trying to run a little :) I also passed someone else on a turn, and she called me "Kri-kri," which was the name given to the Cretan mountain goats that inhabit the higher reaches of the gorge. High praise indeed! So like I said, the plan was to run most of the way, but with the amount of people on the narrow trail this proved difficult. And in true trail running fashion, Mel also fell on the rocks and scraped and bruised her arms and legs (which had just healed from her last fall the day before the wedding!) so she wasn't much for running after that. We ended up walking the rest of the way, still easier and faster than most of the crowd, but with only a bit of jumping down a few hills for good measure. Once we got down to the bottom, the sun was very warm and bright and virtually inescapable. So we were happy to finish the hike as quickly as we could and get something to eat and find some shade. We had a late, big lunch (I had pizza and a fish entree and Mel had a salad, entree, and dessert) and waited around for our meeting with the guide several hours later followed by the ferry. I took advantage of the break to go for a swim in the beautiful waters of the Libyan Sea, clothes, shoes and all. Now I felt like a true trail runner!

The ferry was supposed to arrive at 6pm so we would be back to the bus by 7 and on our way. But as we have learned, Greek ferries do not run on time, or at all sometimes. We finally spotted the boat (a long way out) around 6 and it pulled up to the dock at 6:30. The boat let off passengers and a few vehicles, and some people got on board, but meanwhile the waves had been periodically rising up over the dock and came in really strong while the boat was docked. Eventually the crew wouldn't let anyone on and pulled up the bridge. The crowd of several hundred then started hurrying over toward the beach, so we followed a little bit unsure what was going to happen. The boat backed away from the dock and made its way over, pulling up right on the beach. Well then. It was quite a spectacle, from the people on the dock getting splashed every now and then by the waves, to the mad rush for the boat once it docked, to the scramble to meet the boat over on the beach. We made it on board and set off to the east. The sun was getting low and had disappeared behind a mountain while we were on land, but once we got out in the water a bit, it reappeared and made for some beautiful views. There were a few capes sticking out into the water toward the west, some green and white hills to the north, and the perfect blue waters between us and the shore and as far as the eye could see to the south. It was breathtaking, and I took quite a few pictures, especially as the sun began to set behind the coastline. We made a quick stop in another little seaside town that had no road access, and finally got to our destination a while later just as darkness was falling. We quickly boarded the bus and set off, only about an hour behind schedule. But, it was a good thing it was dark when we left, because we had many more switchbacks back up the mountains and even a trip through some sort of construction zone where there really wasn't much of a road at all. Thankfully Mel was asleep and missed all of this, while I only could see and hear part of what was going on. I do know that the bus was moving very slowly and it was bumpy. We made it back to the city and instead of being dropped at our hotel, we were told to get in a taxi which proved to be quite a ride. I reassured Mel that we were only going about 120-130km/hr (about 70-75 mph) even though I'm sure it felt much faster! We did make it back alive and concluded the day at 11pm. Whew.

Today was a bit shorter and much less active after yesterday's adventure. Tired and sore, we slept in until after 9 and would have slept later except for breakfast ending at 10. We then went back to the room for a nap and to pack as much as we could manage for now. After two weeks of Greek food, we were happy to notice a Domino's right down from our hotel, so we had a pretty American pizza for lunch which we enjoyed outside by the pool. After another nap (notice a trend here?) we finally ventured out for the last major item on the tourist agenda, a visit to the ancient Minoan palace of Knossos. It took a little while to figure out where to board the city bus, but we made it on one and ten minutes later got off at the site. We spent about two hours exploring the large, elaborate ruins. It really must have been quite a place in its heyday. This was the palace that in Greek mythology contained the labyrinth and the Minotaur. It was partially reconstructed by an imaginative archeologist named Arthur Evans in the early 1900's, and some of his structural reconstruction and names and purposes for rooms are probably wildly inaccurate, but it still maintained most of the ancient look and feel. After our visit and an impulsive purchase of a historical guide in the gift shop, it was time for another trip to Meat Heaven for dinner. I thought I could manage two pitas this time, and I didn't disappoint :) nor did the food once again.

So now we're packed up and ready to head home. Hopefully our travel back will go as smoothly as the rest of the trip and we'll be back in Austin Sunday afternoon. Then I'll turn the blog back over to Melissa :)

We've taken a lot of great pictures, some cool souvenirs, and lots of memories from our trip here (and maybe a few extra pounds in our bellies). It was an unforgettable experience. The real world is going to seem strange for a while I'm sure. A lot has happened in the US since we've left, and I'm interested to see what the immediate future brings for some of the major news items. At the same time, the global perspective was definitely lacking in what I was seeing and hearing at home. I hope to be able to stay in touch with what is really happening in the rest of the world, not just hearing the limited focus of news and Americanized version of events given to us by the media. And I hope we can make another trip abroad as soon as Mel has enough vacation time!
Singapore in summer 2009, here we come!