K declared my blog dead earlier this week, with good reason when you look at the stats…28 posts so far all year – 13 in January, 4 in February, 6 in March, 5 in April, 0 in May, and 0 thus far in June. I’m intrigued that he has continually observed the recent lack of postings and perhaps even expressed some level of concern about it? During our discussion this week, I noted that I think the appropriate question to explore (rather than just commenting on the lack of activity) is why I haven’t posted. Now this is something that I have thought a lot about lately. K attributed it to lack of time and energy, but it’s more than just that. As I indicated in one of my last posts, I have been keeping to myself a lot lately and just haven’t felt like sharing. I am still struggling with this, but feel like I have made small steps to reconnect a bit more. I have also enjoyed the protection in some ways of not putting myself out there for others to react to, in part because I have observed my own sometimes very strong negative reactions lately to the blog posts of others. But, at the same time, that prevents me from getting support from others when I want or need it. I was reminded today by someone important to me (thanks, P) of why I started this blog in the first place – yes, it started out as a way to manage my running neuroses but it was also meant to be a means for me to keep my friends updated on what’s going on. Sometimes I think I forget the scope of who may read this – it’s more than just my Austin running peeps, it’s also my friends from college and graduate school who are spread all across the country that I miss sharing with on a regular basis. So, let's give this a go again...
Well, what's new? Geez, where to start. We've done quite a bit of traveling in the past few months - in fact, we have been out of town more weekends than we have been in town since April. And, we're not done yet. We will be attending weddings out of state this weekend (Ohio) and next weekend (Colorado). I still haven't unpacked my big suitcase from our Singapore trip, which is laying in the middle of our living room. Not sure when I'll get to it either, especially since I have a smaller suitcase to use for these next two trips. :)
(Rather than a long, delayed recount of our Singapore trip, I'll just post the pictures when we get them all uploaded.)
My running has come full circle from trail running back to road running with the goal of qualifying for Boston. For a multitude of reasons I had been falling out of love somewhat with trail running during our training for Jemez in the Spring. With the reintegration of speedwork and road running during the 5k/10k PR group, I found myself ready to go back to the road (at least for now). I was ready to run faster again and be accountable to my watch (which is exactly what drove me away from road to trail in the first place). I'm training with Carolyn's Wednesday morning group right now, and I'm making a serious effort to become a morning runner this summer (although the early morning humidity seems to be even more oppressive than the soaring afternoon temps). I have been committed and focused on getting all of my runs in (about 50 mpw for the past few weeks), even while we were traveling. I have no idea who this girl is getting up at 5am to run as I have never, ever been a morning person. I know some of you are just flabbergasted by this new behavior. Me too.
I have felt like I have been slogging through my runs in the past week or so, which is okay I guess since we are in the base-building period and I'm not supposed to be concerned about pace. But, damn, I've been struggling with the humidity in the mornings and seriously seem to be running slower than ever on my easy pace runs. During our MGP workout this week, my only goal was to keep my pace under 9min/mile, which I was able to do without too much difficulty - but getting it down to 8:30ish in this weather is going to be a struggle. I did have a major confidence boosting run on our last day in Singapore about two weeks ago. After a week of running on a treadmill outside in weather conditions quite similar to Austin, I did a 16-mile run on a treadmill in air conditioning at 8:34/mile pace which felt amazingly easy. And then I got on a plane for 20+ hours but that's a different story...
I am bracing for a downward spiral at work, as one of my key employees will be leaving next month. This means that I will essentially be doing the work of 4 people, which is obviously totally manageable. HA! It also means that I have to take back over the primary supervisory responsibilities of my staff, which is not something that I am looking forward to. And, unfortunately, with how slowly the wheels of bureaucracy work, I am unlikely to get any relief by the end of the year. Seriously. So much for our fantasy trip to Paris for Christmas!
K and I have been enjoying our lives as DINKS (dual-income no kids), and still have no plans for kids (or pets) anytime soon. However, we are frustrated by the higher tax rate we are suddenly responsible for now that we are married. And, to make matters worse, K still hasn't gotten the mandatory pay cut removed at work, and it looks like I won't be getting any salary adjustments (not even cost of living) for the upcoming year because of budget cuts due to the economy. So frustrating.
But, all in all, we're good. I'm good. And, I'll make an effort to start sharing more of that again.