Finally, the week's over...

I'm waiting on K to get back from his 20-22 mile run this morning. Note that I am not there. More on that in a minute.

First though, K came pretty close to getting "the phone call" from me yesterday at work. I told him last Friday when all this really heated up that the day might come (sooner rather than later) where he gets a call from me saying that I couldn't do it anymore and quit. It was a really close call yesterday. If my direct supervisor had been there, then I think it would have happened. Obviously what's keeping me there is the practical side of needing a paycheck and benefits, but also that I really do enjoy this population and am just way too responsible and conscientious for my own good. I did "jokingly" tell my supervisor on Tuesday that I might quit, and obviously she freaked out and reminded me of how many people are depending on me there. Yes, I know and I'm not generally someone to walk away from my responsibilities. BUT, the flip side of this is that I am a good psychologist and this is not what I want or deserve in terms of the work environment. Getting my Ph.D. allowed me to have options. I don't have to live my life like this, and I need to do what is best for me in terms of taking care of myself.

So, obviously after another really stressful day, K knew just what I needed...Friday night out for dinner and a movie. It turned out to be just what the doctor needed. We had an early dinner at Hyde Park Bar & Grill then went to see "21." I thought the story was pretty interesting and it kept me engaged so it allowed my mind to completely shut off from work for 2 hours. Mission accomplished.

I haven't talked much about running (or my lack of it) lately. I know that doing the run this morning was critical, but I didn't do it. And, I know that I'm only hurting myself. It's going to just be me and the road on April 27, and I'm going to have to deal with all the demons for 26.2 miles. The thing is that I want to want to run again. I want running to be easy and enjoyable. I want to run pain-free. I want running to be my routine again. But, it's not any of that right now. And that makes me sad.

Obviously there's been a lot going on with the wedding planning, traveling, and work lately that I have allowed to interfere with running. In terms of the wedding planning, we haven't really moved forward with anything in several weeks. On Thursday, friends were asking about the various things that we've done so far, and that got me thinking about it (and, of course, all that still lies ahead). So, here's what we've gotten accomplished so far (in 1 1/2 months):

• Chosen the venue for the ceremony and reception
• Selected a date
• Made the guest list
  
• Mailed save-the-date cards
• Made an appointment with a photographer for our engagement session
• Developed a website for guests
• Reserved a block of hotel rooms for guests
• Booked a hotel for us on the wedding night
• Started our gift registry
  
• Selected the wedding party
• Chosen the bridesmaid dresses
  

And, that's it. Some of the critical things that we still need to do are:

• Choose a caterer and finalize the menu
• Select our colors
• Find a wedding dress
• Choose a florist
• Cakes
• Find someone to marry us
• Decide what we want for music during the ceremony and reception
• Select a photographer
  

There's much, much more to do beyond that. But, that's the next block of things that we're (supposed to be) working on. We have a couple of cake tastings scheduled for tomorrow, so maybe we'll be able to cross that one off the list soon.