Restless...

I'm restless.

While we have had plenty of social gatherings with friends this week, including happy hour with Sadie and Chad after our quality workout on Tuesday, the Hammer's birthday fiesta on Wednesday, and Holly's "I don't need sympathy. I need a drink." party last night, I still feel restless and like something is missing.

I got all my runs in last week, except the 10-mile long run this weekend (I know, the most important one). After the pain-free 14-miler last Saturday, I was frustrated by the re-emergence of my shin pain during my short, easy runs last week. I know that definitely has an effect on my mood. But, this feeling is about more than that.

Then, there's work - I'm still unhappy there with no relief in sight. In fact, I have to speak at a "community forum" tomorrow with several key players in the community, including the mayor and the police chief. The media will be there, so there's a very real possibility that it will be televised. Needless to say, I'm not exactly looking forward to it. I just hope that I can fit my hips into the skirt as part of the suit that I am planning to wear. Ugh.

And, of course, there is the apparently unspeakable issue of my future with K that I'm not supposed to be talking about or thinking about as much as I am. I just got reprimanded for "wearing him out" and this being the "only" thing on my mind. There's more I'd like to say, but better not.

Money remains a huge stressor as well.

So, in many ways, I feel like nothing has really changed over the past few months.

Happy 2008.